Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Allow me to cry?

16/4/09 (1.45pm)
As usual.. I am going to library since final exam is around the corner. What is the different today is i go by myself.. alone and moody.. passing 168 (a food stall).. I am having breaklunch there.. I pick up a meat and a veggie.. and i sit at one the table provided there.. I found that there was a group of 4 friends sit just right beside me.. They were talking happily.. and i asked myself why i am alone here? I think a lot that time.. Where are my friends? Why don't i call some friends to come with me? Actually i did.. i asked my roomates.. one of them would rather study at room.. another two of them are going to eat sushi, which i hate most.. that's why i am not following.. Rain is going to drop soon.. i quickly finish my meal.. rush to library..

I take out thermo book.. read not more than 2 pages.. i start to feel tension and moody.. there is a friend that we make a promise that we would go to library to study together.. why i didn't call him? I also don't know why.. just feel sorry to him.. i am getting more moody.. i feel like wanna find a shady place and cry loudly since i had no cry for a long period.. i recall that i was a crying baby last time.. but lastly i turned up to force myself not to cry and write this blog out to express my feeling... it does make me feel better..

4 comments:

  1. sushi is very goood^^
    first, u shudnt think that much. when u wanna ask something from somebody. don hesitate to call him. U wont know the rseult till u try. who knew, he might jus listen to u.
    second,when u r lonely, thats doesnt mean you are actually lonely. U have warm friends around u who actually want to accompany u. they might waiting for ur call. i believe
    third, a promise is a promise, infact, u shud call him. and u don hav to feel sorry after all. hmm. mayb he/she was not tat "kecil hati". he/she might even forgot about the things happened to u guys. even he/she was busy. u shud jus contaced him..
    anyway
    happy go lucky^^
    alwiz have a smile on ur face
    and laughter in ur hearts
    no one likes ku kua nian ^^

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  2. exam make us stress...make us bcom bad tempor..makes us moodly and angry...somemore makes us hate to continue this studies anymore...i be like this too...mayb u all saw me always smile always happy mean that i am happy as well..but,,sometime i am not...university's life is not in my excepted..tough..hard..ned to put a lot of afford to go futher..friends..i can b ur fren if u felt no ppl accompany u...i am ur brother wat...ha..ba happy lways..tis sem u bcom less smiling ld...be cheerful always..GAMBATEH!!

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  3. well..goin library alone does not mean being lonely. think positively and it makes life better. bare in mind that cryin alone wont help u get anywhere ...
    happy always

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  4. dono? maybe last time sushi not really nice lar.. i felt uneasy when i ate it..
    u can ask tan nian yee.. see wat's her opinion on sushi.. i think she will stand on my side.. we are really "brother".. kaka..
    last sem i always smile huh? did i? i can't remember.. i think i m not less smiling.. it's maybe because my mom born me as "ku gua lian".. haha..
    john.. i know going library alone does not mean being lonely.. it's might juz because i am too moody for tat day and think negatively..

    really feel suprised when i saw got comment on my posting.. i thought juz alien can understand my english.. lolz..
    i did feel relief and happy cuz i stil hav fren cares about me.. thanks you all!^^

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